Money Can't Buy You....

We have all heard the sayings ¨money can't buy you love¨ and ¨money can't buy you happiness¨. I am here to tell you that some cliches are extremely true. Life is about perspective and I can honestly say that my new view has taught me that these sayings are right on the money...pun intended.
My precious Lauren was killed in a tragic accident through no fault of her own. Now a lot of people think this means I should be owed monetary compensation. Some people think this should be a substantial amount. My question to them would be ¨For what?¨ It's not like I was dependent upon Lauren's income which would now be lost...actually the opposite it true.  No amount of money can bring my daughter back to me. No monetary value will fill the immense hole in my heart. And no substantial pay out will make me mourn her loss any less.
It is expensive to lay a loved one to rest. I was extremely fortunate that my ex Ray was able to take on most of the expense for Lauren's service and I will be eternally grateful. I realize this is not the case for everyone and therefore receiving benefits from insurance policies is crucial.
I admit it would be beneficial to have additional funds to help with starting the scholarship in Lauren's name but I believe it would come at too high a price. I do not want to deal with attorneys (no offense) and law suits and finger pointing. Considering that the "at fault" driver also perished in the accident exactly who am I going to point at anyway? I do not want to rehash the worst night of my life over and over again. I do not want to fill my head and heart with even more details about the events leading up to Lauren's terrible demise than I already know.
As time goes on and I handle more business pertaining to losing Lauren my monthly budget adjusts. Dropping Lauren from our car insurance caused a reduction in our monthly payment. No longer needing to set money aside to pay for her classes equals savings. Cell phone coverage includes one less device so that bill has come down too.  I cannot express to you how insignificant these savings are in comparison to having my daughter here with me again. I would gladly pay any amount to have her back.
I went to the bank the other day to deposit some funds sent to me from my insurance company. When I returned home I sat in my back room amidst all of Lauren's things we brought back from her dorm room and I wept. I held her stuffed animals and buried my face in them to dry my tears hoping to catch her scent. I touched her clothes and rummaged her papers. I was a total mess.
So I can honestly say that money cannot buy you love or happiness. It can buy you things....items. But it cannot buy you everything you want. It cannot buy you a way to go back in time and change events. If it could then I might be interested.